Lady Gaga is giving fans a peek at the girl behind the pop star in an exclusive special titled "Lady Gaga: Inside the Outside." In the hour-long interview, set to air Thursday, May 26, at 9 p.m. ET/PT on MTV, the singer reveals how she went from Stefani Germanotta to Gaga, pop's pre-eminent global superstar, and allows her audience to share her vulnerabilities.
During the intimate chat, Mother Monster opens up about her rise to fame — from her school days of being bullied by classmates to the moment she decided to pursue her dreams of pop stardom. She speaks in-depth about the moments that shaped her as an artist, including the release of her highly anticipated album, Born This Way, on May 23.
"Lady Gaga: Inside the Outside" also focuses on Gaga at home, spotlighting her close relationship with her family and growing up in Manhattan before she made the life-changing decision to move out on her own to New York City's Lower East Side.
Gaga recalls being bullied by students at school and what impact it had on her. "I remember once, some of the girls from my class, they were hanging out with some boys that I knew also," the "Judas" singer says. "And then I went to meet some friends for some pizza that were at the same pizzeria, and the boys picked me up and threw me in the trashcan on the street on the corner of my block, while all the other girls from the school were leaving and could see me in the trash and everybody was laughing — and I was even laughing.
"I always have that nervous giggle and I just remember, like, holding back the tears and the lip quivering," she continues. "And I remember even one of the girls looking at me like, 'Are you about to cry? You're pathetic.' I remember I didn't tell anybody, that's what I remember. I remember I didn't tell anybody. I remember I didn't want to tell my parents because it was too embarrassing. And I remember I didn't want to really bring it up with my girlfriends even though they were there."
Her parents, as Gaga explains in the special, have always been supportive of her dreams, even if it meant challenging her.
"My dad was really into rock and roll. Bruce Springsteen had such an influence on our home. My dad saw me singing along to his records and he would pick me up and throw me around the room and laugh and cry with me while I would sing Pink Floyd and Bruce Springsteen and Billy Joel records with him. My father gave me — I believe it was for Christmas — it was a Bruce Springsteen songbook for the piano and on it was 'Thunder Road,' which is my favorite Bruce Springsteen song. And my dad said, 'If you learn how to play this song, we will take out a loan for a grand piano, a baby grand.' I didn't know the difference. There was the big one and a small one."
A young Gaga was more than up for the challenge. "So I remember it was the hardest thing for me. I was playing these huge pieces, like 15 pages long. ... I opened up the book and there was, like, chords, guitar chords. I was so confused, I didn't understand it, so I just started to read it," she recalls. "Eventually, I got it down."
Catch an exclusive teaser trailer for "Lady Gaga: Inside the Outside" on Thursday at 10:58 p.m. ET/PT on MTV, after a new episode of "Randy Jackson Presents: America's Best Dance Crew."