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Future Gets Deep About Failed Engagement To Ciara

'Sh-t kinda threw me off,' Future says.

It's not often that Future opens up, but with a new LP (DS2) on the way and a very shortened album rollout, the Atlanta hit-machine got very talkative in the first part of a new five-part online documentary titled "Like I Never Left."

The doc found a reflective Future sitting with veteran hip-hop journalist Elliott Wilson and talking about the misdirection on his 2014 release Honest and his failed marriage plans with singer Ciara.

"I feel like I'm just losing by myself," Future said in the doc, which premiered on on Monday (July 13). "And I'm not responsible for the situation that I'm putting myself in. I took so much advice, I put myself in so many situations and I was like, 'Man I can't be out here. I gotta just go back home. I gotta record, I gotta back comfortable with doing the music that I'm doing.'"

During his Honest period Future moved beyond the trap sound he mastered in Atlanta. He collaborated with Miley Cyrus on "Real and True" (though that single ultimately did not make the album) and swung for the fences with Kanye West on "I Won."

The results weren't exactly what fans were expecting, so Future decided to get right back to work with his ex-fiancée Ciara. Together the couple (along with producer Mike Will Made It) found musical success with her 2013 gold-selling single "Body Party," so Future assumed they'd pick up where they left off for Ci's recently released Jackie album.

Instead, Ciara opted for a different direction and worked with pop producer Dr. Luke for four tracks on the album. Future was left dumbfounded.

"We finished the album before she just dropped and she didn't want us to be a part of it at first, and I'm like, 'Damn we just came off a number one and you go straight to Dr. Luke and start working with him,'" he said.

The way Future makes things seem in this doc, his musical disconnect with Ciara then led to problems with their pending nuptials.

"So me and Mike Will, we didn't even get a chance to work on the album -- the last album. Even though we had a number one, coming off a number one. I thought that was a little weird." he said as he sips tea. "And we're still in a relationship, so it was like, sh-t kinda threw me off."

Things went downhill from there and the couple split in August 2014. Musically, however, Future found great success with a string of mixtapes he released starting with Monster in October 2014.

"She was just trying to feel like, we need to rush the date and go on and do it.

I wanna marry you, but I can't have no big wedding on E! News. I can't have... all these different big media outlets covering my wedding and I'm not comfortable," he explained.

"I'm not comfortable with the people who are in here. I'm not comfortable about where I'm at in my career. I'm not comfortable about compromising and about being the person that I am and being the man that I am," Future continued. "I feel like my better judgement is to go back to record and make music. Make the music I know the people want. I know they want the ratchet sh-t from me, I know they want me to say the most disrespectful sh-t it is. I came in like that. I gotta say some off the wall sh-t to get people's attention."