“Probably dead,” he laughed to MTV News.
Pattinson sat down with Josh Horowitz to look back on what the series has been for him both as an actor and as a person, and he said that without the vampire series, he doesn’t know what would have happened to him. For a while, the London-born actor didn’t know whether acting was for him and struggled with the question of continuing to appear in front of the camera.
“I think a lot of actors think about that all the time,” he said.
Pattinson said it has to do with the constant focus on an actor’s insecurities that drive people like him to question the profession.
“You have to confront your insecurities quite a lot, and I have plenty, plenty of insecurities,” he laughed. “Even more [now]. Before, you could kind of bullsh– yourself all the time.”
For him, obscurity allows for a little less honesty when it comes to self-image. “If no one cares about you, you can be like, ’I’m the greatest person in the whole world,’ ” he said. “You can be completely delusional.”
At 25, Pattinson said there is not even a small sense of vanity anymore. He said he hadn’t patted himself on the back for his looks in a while and that it’s to the point where he is “almost sick at the sight of [himself]. I’m getting older as well. I’m almost 50.”
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