[artist id="1961441"]Chris Brown[/artist] opened up about his assault on former girlfriend [artist id="1940303"]Rihanna[/artist] during the MTV News special "Chris Brown: The Interview" on Friday (November 6), elaborating on his destructive behavior, explaining his previous apologies and describing his ongoing therapy sessions.
Brown told MTV News correspondent Sway that he has finally come to terms with the fact that he was capable of such violence.
"I think you'd be in denial and be totally naive not to," he said. "And not being able to realize and own up to the fact of your own wrongs. I mean, me, I've come to terms with it and I'm working on it. ... For that moment or whatever had me at that place, I want to erase that from what my character is. I want to be totally different from now on. I don't want to be that person."
Brown admitted that he's still unsure about how the public views him in the aftermath of the incident. His die-hard fans have continued to support him, but others have openly criticized the 20-year-old star. The mixed reaction has confused Brown, he said.
"I'm confused right now as far as the public perception [of me]," he said. "Like, I think with my fans, they still love me, they support me, definitely. You have those people who will support you. So it's kinda like 50/50 for me. I got the people that will come out and support and then the people that don't wanna see me do anything. They basically want me in jail."
Brown said he hasn't been able to brush off negative comments he gets in public. During a trip to an amusement park, Brown described hearing cries of "woman beater."
"I'm human, so when I hear certain things that they say or if I go somewhere and I hear somebody be rude about it, it's just like, 'Man, it's a mistake,' " Brown said. "I made a big mistake. I'm learning from it. Like, I'm not saying, 'Who are they to judge?' because, I mean, everybody's entitled to their own opinion on how they feel, but it hurts."
The singer opened up about his Twitter activity as well. He has twice tweeted fan videos that feature images of him with Rihanna. Brown said he wanted to show that their union wasn't "chaotic." "We actually were very close friends," he said of their relationship.
Brown is currently in the midst of his court-mandated therapy sessions. The singer said he enjoys the counseling and has been responding to the support.
"When I apologize, I really apologize, definitely, about the situation, like me and her personally, obviously," Brown explained. "We've exchanged, I've exchanged my apologies for her, but when I do it publicly, it's for who I've let down. It's for the fans, it's for all the people, even the sponsors. Even the people that have invested in me and thought that I was a good enough role model to be branded or to be like, 'OK, this is Chris Brown.' I really wanted to apologize for the people that I let down and show people that I am wrong for what I've done, but I want people to learn from it and see that I'm really apologetic."
Dr. Michelle Callahan, a developmental psychiatrist, said understanding the consequences of an action like Brown's is at the core of rehabilitating violent behavior.
"It's very important that they realize this," she told MTV News. "You can get into a lot of trouble. Not only can you seriously get hurt or hurt someone you love, you can get into a lot of trouble. You get involved in the legal system. You can go to jail. There's a lot at stake."
Brown echoed Callahan's comment in a statement he released to MTV News on Friday responding to Rihanna's interview with Diane Sawyer.
"I only hope that others in similar situations can learn from our experience as well," Brown said. "Abuse of any kind is always wrong."