Travis Barker's ex-wife, Shanna Moakler, told US Weekly that she was supposed to be aboard the private jet that crashed in South Carolina on September 19, injuring Barker and DJ AM and killing four others, but she changed her plans at the last minute because she had "a bad feeling."
"I was supposed to go with [Travis] to South Carolina, and at the last minute, I had this gnarly feeling and said, 'I don't think we should fly together anymore,' " she told the magazine in its October 17 issue, which hits stands Friday. "God forbid something ever happened ... our kids wouldn't have both parents. Instead of flying a commercial flight back home, they decided to take a private jet. He e-mailed me pictures of the plane and wrote, 'It's really small and scary.' I had a bad feeling, but didn't want to sound strange, so I said, 'Be safe.' "
In the interview, Moakler said she received word of the crash when a paramedic called her, and that at first, she thought it was Barker and AM playing a joke on her.
"I almost hung up on him. He said, 'No, ma'am, I am very serious.' I was like, 'Oh, my God. What do I do?' and started crying," she said. "I had to sit down with [Barker's assistant] Little Chris [Baker's] wife, Jessica, and break the news about Chris. Someone could have been giving me that news. It was horrible."
Moakler told Us that she also had to break the news of the crash to her children — Atiana, 9, from a previous relationship, and Landon, 5, and Alabama, 2, from her marriage to Barker — then "took a lot of Xanax" and boarded a flight with one of Barker's managers to be by her ex's side at the Joseph M. Still Burn Center in Augusta, Georgia.
"I flew with one of his managers because I didn't want to be alone," she said. "When I saw him at the hospital, he was all bandaged up but could talk. We both cried and cried. The hardest part is to see someone you love in such pain and not be able to do anything about it."
She also described Barker's ongoing treatment at a Los Angeles burn center, and said that his burns have healed to the point where "he might be out in the next two weeks."
At the end of the interview, Moakler briefly addresses Barker's comment in a recent MySpace blog that he hasn't seen her since "the week [he] checked in," saying that she was "deeply hurt" by the comment, but that the couple share "a love that will always be there."
"Trav and I are so crazy. We are off for one week, on the next," she said. "I haven't thought about the long term. We're just trying to get him well and home. ... I would never abandon anyone in his condition, and I have made sure he had a support system. My feelings are deeply hurt. I wish him a speedy recovery and am thankful he's alive."