- No.- So do you think it's possible
to like someonelike you like--
say, you like me, right?'Cause we've been going--
we've known each othersince 12, 13.
- Mm-hmm.- When I was using,
you didn't dislike me,did you?
You liked me, but you didn'tlike what I was doing, right?
- Yeah,because the whole thing
about usingand that sort of thing, it...
- I didn't like you at all.
- It--it changesa person's disposition
and personality, really.
But you stilllike the person.
You hear people say,"Now, this is the Butch I knew,"
or, "This is the"--- I know.
I heard it my whole life.
Mom told me,and everyone else told me,
"Well, you know,your dad ain't ah-nah-nah."
And I'm like,"Whatever, okay."
- Once you reconditionyour brain to think
of a different wayof living life,
you're no longer dependenton any kind of alcohol or drug.
I was never addictedto crack cocaine.
I was--I enjoyed doing it'cause I thought I liked it.
I liked that rush.- People say--
- What? Are yousaying you weren't
addicted tocrack cocaine?
- What? I feel likeyou were addicted to it.
- Is that what you just said?
- No, I was never addictedto crack cocaine.
- When I busted you--- But--but don't you remember--
don't you remember--you don't remember
sending that text message?
I remember--I rememberthat text message clear as day.
It said, "I'm sorry to say--I know this is bad,
"but I do love cocainemore than you,
and I'm sorry."
- Because I kept using it.- Mm-hmm.
- So I told myself,"I must love this more
than I do them."
I was emotionally,spiritually bankrupt.
It was gone.
I didn't--I didn't knowexactly what I was doing.
- Dad, that's addiction.- So I didn't know how to,
uh, processwhatever I was feeling.
- Right,you're numbing it out.
You're substituting itwith something else.
- You guys can call itwhatever you want.
- Okay.- I just--
you know,you can name it.
- It was just weirdto hear you say,
"I was never addictedto crack cocaine."