When Vanity Fair got hold of Justin Bieber for their February cover story, the boy wonder admitted that there's a lot going on in that well-coifed head of his. "I'm crazy, I'm nuts," the teen pop sensation declares, while suggesting that might not be such a bad thing for someone in his line of work.
"Just the way my brain works. I'm not normal. I think differently — my mind is always racing," he says in the issue, which hits newsstands everywhere January 11. "I'm just ... nuts. But I think the best [musicians] probably are."
Bieber, whose "Never Say Never" movie hits theaters on February 11, also talks about his hectic life in the spotlight. "It's hard to really balance myself. A regular kid, if he catches the flu, he just gets to go home," the young singer explains. "But I can't do that ... Everything is important. But, you know, my sanity is important, too. Even if I'm angry, I'll just put a smile on my face and fake it. I don't often fake it — what's me is me ... I know I have to give up a lot of myself, or a lot of a private life."
Still, Bieber reveals that he does have someone who helps to ensure that he gets to have some normal experiences. That guy is Kenny Hamilton, his bodyguard, who says, "I feel like I've become an expert at covert operations," adding that he is the guy who makes sure that things go smoothly when the singer gets a day off.
Aside from trying to find time for a personal life, Bieber also confesses that he wants to travel to space (something fellow pop star Lance Bass also dreamt about), hates reading — although he does own a copy of the Will Smith-approved "Rich Dad Poor Dad" — and has a hard time sleeping at night, but that could be attributed to his self-proclaimed racing mind.
"I just turn over all night and think. My mind races," he explains. "I think about all the things I didn't have time to think about during the day — like family and God and things that should be more important but you don't have time to think about, because you just get caught up [in everything else] during the day."
The Vanity Fair piece also includes a conversation with Bieber's mom, Pattie Mallette, who shared that she thinks God put her and her son on Earth to bring light to the world. In addition, the magazine spoke with Usher, who describes the mop-topped singer as "the antithesis of Disney and Nickelodeon," while adding, "You could immediately tell that this [was] a kid who has style — he's a hip kid."
Bieber, now 16, is experiencing all his growing pains in the public eye and he knows that everyone is watching. "For younger guys, it's like [they think] they're not cool if they come to my concert. That'll [change], I think; it'll happen, maybe when I'm 18. But meanwhile, all their girlfriends are coming to watch me," he says. "Of course, I think that people are just waiting for that time when I make a mistake and they're gonna jump on it ... There's gonna be haters."
He adds that he intends to remain level-headed as his career progresses. "I know I'm not going to make a life-changing bad decision, as some people have," he insists. "I've seen it happen too many times. I could be my own worst enemy, but I don't want to mess this up."