"People wanted to know a lot about my personal life and I wasn't prepared for a '60 Minutes' interview every time," Cudi told Complex. "Doing bumps [of cocaine], I was able to get through the day, but then I would smoke weed to calm me down — it was the only way I could get through the day without people noticing I was doing it."
Cudi has made no secret about his love of marijuana, but the rapper explained in the magazine's October/November issue that he started using cocaine to help him get through interviews. While he claims he never thought it was a problem, he admitted his coke use was like "high-fiving death a couple of times." It took a lot for him to open up about the substance abuse on his upcoming new album, but he wanted to be candid with fans.
"I don't feel like I need to explain myself to anyone besides the fans. My fans don't believe sh-- until they hear me say it, and those are true Kid Cudi fans. I want them to know the story."
Cudi revealed that he had a revelation as he was walked out of court.
"It was really just like, 'Man, you got it f---ing going on, and you were about to piss it all away for some bullsh--.' Everywhere I go, people be looking at me like I'm some type of f---ing crackhead now. Nobody wants to have their f---ing name attached to a maniac, to a f----up, so everyone distances themselves."
Cudi also credited the birth of his daughter with helping him to turn things around. "She's my best friend and she doesn't even know it. That's why I always told myself I'm going to make these songs for my kids, so they can follow along and know my story, if something was ever to happen to me."
The follow-up to Cudi's debut will be a darker effort because it reflects where his life was at the time. When MTV News caught up with Cudi on the VMA white carpet, he talked a little more about what he set out to do on Mr. Rager.
"With Mr. Rager, I kind of wanted to try something different with the writing this time," Cudi said. "It's just me kind of telling my story, but in a different format, in a different way, just writing it in a poetic manner. I wanted to do more poetic raps, whether it's just rhymes or stuff like that or sometimes just repeating things just to get certain lines across, just to get people thinking."
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