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Halsey Opens Up About Her Miscarriage In Her Most Honest Interview Yet

'Last year on tour I got pregnant,' she revealed

Nothing was off-limits in Halsey's new interview with Rolling Stone. Reporter Alex Morris spoke to the pop star about the perils of fame, her passionate fans, and her unforgettable music.

"I didn't want to meet you at all," Halsey told Morris during one of their meetings. You see, Morris wrote a Planned Parenthood article last April that left Halsey feeling like "someone put a shopping bag over [her] head."

"I was really terrified of you," the singer-songwriter explained, "because I knew as soon as I saw you, I was going to need to tell you that last year on tour I got pregnant."

Today Halsey is on the final leg of her world tour, which wraps with a sold-out show in New York's Madison Square Garden next month. In the last year, she dropped her now gold-certified debut record, Badlands, and took the stage at the MTV Movie Awards. But before any of this became reality, she discovered she was pregnant.

"What happens? Do I lose my record deal?" she recalled thinking at the time. "Do I lose everything? Or do I keep [the pregnancy]? What are the fans going to think? What are the moms going to think? What is the Midwest going to think? What's fucking everyone going to think?"

Then she suffered a miscarriage, just hours before she was scheduled to perform. She was bleeding and, understandably, convinced she needed to cancel the show.

She didn't. Instead, she put on an adult diaper, popped two Percocet, and got onstage for her "angriest performance" ever.

"That was the moment of my life where I thought to myself, 'I don't feel like a fucking human being anymore,'" she explained. "This thing, this music, Halsey, whatever it is that I'm doing, took precedence and priority over every decision that I made regarding this entire situation from the moment I found out until the moment it went wrong. I walked offstage and went into the parking lot and just started throwing up."

Her experience, as powerful as it is heartbreaking, is a humbling reminder that celebrities aren't superhumans. They go through the same shit we all do. Sometimes they have bad days. Sometimes they have incredible days. Both are beautiful in their own way.

For more on Halsey's life and rise to superstardom, read her full Rolling Stone interview here.