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Lady Gaga Took A Step Back From Music Because She Was ‘Going To Die’

Plus, six other things we learned in her revealing new interview.

Lady Gaga may have had a busy year, but it's been awhile since we've actually heard from Mother Monster.

Wait no longer because the singer graces the cover of Billboard magazine as their Woman of the Year. The "Edge of Glory" singer opens up about the ups and downs that she's faced since the release of her 2013 album, Artpop, her show-stopping performance at this year's Academy Awards and how she's ready to "explode" in her 30s.

Here are seven things we learned from Lady Gaga in her brand-new, revealing, interview.

  1. Lady Gaga's ready to explode in her 30s.
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    The singer may have four more months to go until she turns 30, but she reveals she's already "mourned" her twenties and is ready to show people "what it can mean to be a woman in her 30s." She's ready to rid people of the stigma that ‘You’re an old woman’ when you hit the milestone year and that women in music "don’t need to try to keep up with the 19-year-olds and the 21-year-olds in order to have a hit." Gaga's mission for her 30s: "I want to explode."

  2. Her Oscars performance was a gamble.
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    But only because she felt "everyone had written me off." Lady Gaga delivered a flawless medley to honor "The Sound Of Music's" 50th anniversary at the Academy Awards which she worked on for two months, while sober, to hit those notes.

  3. The pop train almost stopped.
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    At the end of 2014, Gaga was asked by her stylist if she even wanted to continue to be a pop star anymore, which prompted her to respond, "if I could just stop this train right now, today, I would. I just can’t. [But] I need to get off now because I’m going to die." The "Born This Way" singer said that she was going so fast that she didn't "feel safe anymore," but then "I felt hands lifting me. It was like everybody came together to try and put a star back in the sky, and they weren’t going to let me down.”

  4. Tony Bennett & Elton John give her happiness.
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    Lady Gaga credits her good friends Tony Bennett and Elton John for making her happy when "the whole industry turned their back during Artpop." Gaga says that they each told her that this moment in her career was "a blip" that was "going to go away."

  5. Working on 'American Horror Story' is 'destiny.'
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    Gaga doesn't "fit most molds," which is why she says working on Ryan Murphy's "AHS" was the perfect match because she "wanted to create something extremely meaningful by exploring the art of darkness."

    “Ryan [Murphy] and I have both experienced the same sort of criticism over the intention of our work. My whole career has been built on this perception that I’m trying to evoke attention because of the things I’m interested in, when it’s not that way at all. If you don’t like to be disturbed, [American Horror Story] probably isn’t for you. If you don’t like absurdity, I’m probably not for you."

  6. Gaga had writers block.

    For two "f--king years," Gaga couldn't write and didn't want to be near a piano because it was "too emotional."

    "I would start to play and sing, and my mind would go, ‘You are way too talented for this shit. F---, your voice sounds good. F---, that’s a beautiful chord. F---, that’s an amazing lyric. Why are you letting these people run you into the ground? When did you become the fashionable robot?’ Can’t being an artist be enough? Is talent ever the thing? I think for Adele it is. I think for Bruno Mars it is. But that’s what I learned from working with Tony: If talent isn’t the thing, then you are way off-base."

  7. She's ready to 'purify' the industry.
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    Gaga is calling on her fellow artists to be kind and compassionate to one another and "purify this industry again and put our finger in the face of every executive and say, ‘If you are spending money, is it on someone who can really sing? Is it on someone who has a perspective?"