Maci's Teen Mom Diary: Why I Took Ryan Back

All of our Teen Moms kept a personal diary throughout filming, and with their consent, we're sharing relevant entries after each week's episode airs. Below, Maci explains why she decided to reconcile with Ryan ...

When Ryan and I broke up, I felt like he needed to do a lot of things differently and step up before I would even consider getting back together with him. I really wanted to see him be a father before I could be with him again as a girlfriend.

Ryan wanted a change from me, too. I think he just wanted me to be understanding and more patient with him, considering he was such a young father and he wouldn't become perfect overnight.

I decided to take Ryan back because there were still so many feelings I had for him. I was honestly in love with Ryan as a person, but I felt like I needed to help him become the father I wanted for my child. When I decided to be with Ryan again, it didn't mean that we became engaged again. I was not near ready to be married to him, and he was definitely not ready to be a husband.