Kaitlin Apologizes 'To Anyone Who My Words Offended'

We're halfway through Paris Hilton's grueling search for a new slave sidekick, but the heiress sure isn't making the game any easier for its remaining contestants. On tonight's episode, another two wannabes bit the dust -- hard, and to their own dismay. R.I.P. Nicole and Kaitlin! (And lovely Farrah Fawcett, as long as we're on the subject.)

Below, check out Kaitlin's update on life after taping the emotional roller-coaster ride known to y'all as Paris Hilton's My New BFF...

Well, my time was cut short, but what a wonderful/stressful/ exhausting/once-in-a-lifetime experience it was!

I think people have this idea of reality TV like it's all fun, games and parties. Although that's a big part of it, it's also very tedious and stressful.

At one point in the show, Stephen called me "a mess" -- and honestly, I was. It's hard to be enthusiastic and in the right state of mind when you're not sleeping enough, not eating well and can't talk to your friends or family from back home. Plus, taking heat from other cast members doesn't help. You should always take this into consideration when watching reality shows!

The best times I had during this entire experience were when the cameras were off! One of my favorite memories is making everyone breakfast (every day!), no matter what happened the night before. (I always wanted to make sure everyone got a hearty meal before we started the day.) They never show that!

As for my casting footage, I could blog all day about how it was edited, what they did to it to make it look and sound the way it did. But shame on me for my foolishness in that tape and giving producers/editors even more material to work with.

You barely ever get on reality TV for being some perfect, God-loving creature. I knew I would have to be controversial to get on the show. And hey, I guess it worked. I would still like to apologize to anyone who my words offended. It wasn't the way I wanted to go out, but it is what it is. I still don't agree with how and why I was eliminated.

I honestly don't have a problem with anyone who was on the show. The only person I don't talk to anymore is Katie. At first glance, I may have judged certain people, but I can now say that I love each member for the individual that they are. Arielle has been my girl from the beginning of casting. Rachel is a sweet, funny vegan. Monica was always my kitchen helper and bartender on the show. Arika is a little, trendy fashionista and lives close by in L.A. Kristen is confident, mature and strong-willed. Chris enjoys nutrition and fitness like I do. Even though they show Amanda as having a hard shell on the show, she's so sweet and really fun to be around. Tiniecia can be hard at first, but as I got to know her, I realized she is absolutely hilarious, and honest. Stephen is my comic relief and the cutest boy ever -- we still hang out. Stefanie is lighthearted and seems like a really good friend. Nicole may be a bit much at first, but her intentions are good. David is really chill, and I respect his upbringing. Desirae and I clicked from the beginning and she had my back pretty much the entire show. Elena is my fellow shorty and reminds me of my friends back home.

I may be gone (for now!), but you shouldn't end your BFF experience here. Keep watching...

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