Gwen Stefani has finally opened up about her life after her very public split from husband Gavin Rossdale, and not only did she reveal that, yes, she wrote a boatload of new songs about the exact moment her life went upside down, but she also shared that she's kind of loving all the newness that her single life has to offer right now.
In a lengthy interview with Carson Daly at 97.1, Gwen explained that she's currently experiencing an all "new life ... and it's pretty awesome."
"I think it was February when my life just whoa, it just changed. And at that point … before that it was like I couldn’t really write. I wanted to, but it was just my life was just so … I couldn’t write. It just wasn’t happening, I was so insecure about it. And then it just opened up. This channel just opened up," Gwen explained, despite feeling nauseous about broaching the subject on air.
"This is crazy what’s happening to me. And everybody who hears a song -- I don’t have anything to hide. Everybody knows that I was married forever, and now I’m not. And so could you imagine what my life is like right now? It’s crazy," Stefani added.
Her first brush with recording came at quite an emotional cost, too.
"I ended up going to the studio, and on the way to the studio that first time, I didn’t want to go. I wanted to be in my bed crying. And I did cry, the entire -- all the way down to Santa Monica like 'What am I doing? Why am I doing this?'" she said.
Once she got into the studio, though, she was able to channel those emotions into something surprisingly creative, and that opened the floodgates of healing. In a matter of eight weeks, Stefani and her team of co-writers had laid down 19 songs.
"That feeling of being able to write again, that’s everything to me. Everything about who I am confidence-wise and my value to myself is about songwriting," said Gwen.
What resulted was a crescendo of music that perfectly complements the experiences she had as a result of her personal tragic kingdom.
"If you hear the record, the entire record -- the first half was like that. All the songs were quite humorous but dark .. they were like sarcastic. There was a humor to them. Then it went to a place of realness. That’s where ‘Used to Love You’ happened. Then it went to joyful," she explained.
And yes, "Used to Love You" is exactly as personal as you expect. In fact, according to Gwen, she wrote the song just a day after "some crazy stuff had gone down ... in my life."
"Instead of going online and looking at stuff I was like this is how I’m going to heal, I’m going to write, I need to write," she said.
Listen to the full, heartfelt interview below.