In the episode airing tonight (November 8), Chelsea Settles gets her butt kicked during her first workout in the City of Angels. "I'm most nervous for the first workout with Angela. It was insanity," she dished to MTV News. "It was nuts, nuts, nuts, nuts. I wanted to quit. I felt like I should just be fat for the rest of my life."
During the super-tough workout, she said she was thinking, " 'Why do I need to go through this?' I knew that I wanted to lose weight, but I didn't know the hard work and dedication it would take to get there. I wish there was some sort of magic cure to end it all. I didn't want to put in the hard work. I was embarrassed ... so it was kind of mental."
Over the course of the season, those trying moments have helped Settles connect with the audience, and fan feedback has been incredibly positive toward her. "It's really crazy, and I can't believe it because we're almost halfway there," she said. "It's kind of a whirlwind but I'm excited to get to interact with a lot of the viewers, and I'm glad that the response has been the way that it has. There's such an outpouring of love and sincerity from so many people, and I just feel grateful."
While fans love watching Settles grow week after week, it's been really overwhelming for her. "I cringe every Tuesday before the show airs," she admitted. "I have butterflies in my stomach. I don't know what to expect. It's just it's weird to see that I played the victim so much. I never realized that I did that. I blamed everything on my weight, and in a lot of the situations, it had nothing to do with my weight."
So, what does Settles blame for her early strife on the show? "It was just lack of confidence and me needing to come into my own, but I just have to accept myself as that girl and love her just as much as I love myself now," she said. "And that's been the process that I've been going through."
Don't miss the new episode of "Chelsea Settles," airing tonight (November 8) at 10 p.m. ET/PT (9 Central) on MTV.