While many felt it was unnecessary for [artist id="2389485"]Taylor Swift[/artist] to rehash the controversial Kanye West debate when she performed "Innocent" at the 2010 VMAs, the country/pop princess thought it was important. In a recent interview with NYMag.com, the singer opens up about the rapper-inspired cut, her speculated ode to ex-boyfriend Taylor Lautner and what she has learned about herself in the "emotionally intense" past two years.
"I think a lot of people expected me to write a song about [West]," she says of her ballad "Innocent," just one of many confessional songs on her new album, Speak Now. "But, for me, it was important to write a song to him."
Swift acknowledges that she wasn't interested in a pity party. "It doesn't really add anything good if I start victimizing myself and complaining about things. Because I'm proud of that performance at the VMAs last year, where my fans helped me get through it," she explains.
"And there was a lot that went down backstage that I will always be thankful for, and the fans in the subway know exactly what happened that night. I feel everything. I've never had this thick skin that can't be... It's not like I am bulletproof in any sense of the word."
Another track included on her open diary-esque album, Speak Now, is the rumored ode to ex-boyfriend Lautner called "The Story of Us." Reminiscing on events that inspired the cut, the 20-year-old singer says, "It was at an awards show, and there had been this falling-out between me and this guy.
"I think both of us had so much that we wanted to say, but we're sitting six seats away from each other, just fighting this silent war of 'I don't care that you're here,' " she continues. "I remember getting home and sitting at the kitchen table, and saying to my mom, 'It was like I was standing alone in a crowded room.' That's when my eyes glazed over, and I got distracted and walked away to write," adding, "My mom is used to me doing that."
With her share of controversy and boy troubles under her belt, Swift is coming to terms with how these events have impacted her. "I think I've developed, as many people do, this sense of 'Don't say the wrong thing, or else people will point at you and laugh,' " she confesses.
"In your personal life, that can lead to being guarded and not making what you feel clear in the moments that you're feeling it. For me, it's never really fearing saying what's on my mind in my music, but sometimes having a problem with it in life. Sometimes you lose the moment."
In true Swift tradition, the former teen sensation took her sometimes-lost moments and used them as a theme for the title of her new album.
"I just kept going back to 'Speak Now,' because I think it's a metaphor for so many things we go through in life, that moment where it's almost too late," she admits. "And you've gotta either say what it is you are feeling or deal with the consequences forever."
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