In a sit-down interview before a live audience on BET's "106 & Park," Chris Brown admitted he watched [article id="1625783"]Rihanna's "20/20" interview[/article] with Diane Sawyer.
"I respect her decisions and whatever she wants to say," he said. "I personally want to keep things private, but at the end of the day, it's her decision."
Throughout the sit-down, which was recorded earlier this week and aired Thursday (November 12), Brown continued to apologize for assaulting Rihanna. The singer has revealed more of his emotions in each interview. He first broke his silence with Larry King, then Hot 97's Angie Martinez, and last week with MTV News correspondent Sway during [article id="1625774"]"Chris Brown: The Interview."[/article]
During the BET interview, Brown also discussed the isolation he feels in the aftermath of the February incident.
"I'm working on it," Brown explained. "I'm really going through it. It's not just the physical labor [aspect of my punishment]; it's the mental labor. It's things that a 19-year-old or a 20-year-old has to deal with. It's not just the room saying, 'We don't like you'; it's the world. It kind of messes with a real person. I'm a real guy. I'm not a mannequin or a robot. I'm a real dude, so that hurts."
Brown said being judged by the court of public opinion is the worst of his punishments.
When he initially appeared in public following his attack on Rihanna, Brown said he wanted to wear glasses and hide. "I didn't want people to really see me," he said. "I was nervous and embarrassed — just really standoffish."
Brown was asked to respond to a comment Rihanna made during her Sawyer interview when the "Umbrella" singer said she wanted her ex-boyfriend to not feel sorry for himself. He admitted his grief but said it's part of his rehabilitation process.
"I don't think I would be human if I didn't feel sorry for myself," Brown said. "I do feel like it was a mistake I made, and I'm embarrassed with a mistake I made. It's something I have to live with, but it's something that I'm gonna change."
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