50 Cent Talks About Success, Beefs In New 'Behind The Music'

'Beefs are a part of hip-hop culture,' the rapper tells the show, airing October 13.

Since making his entrance into the hip-hop world in the late '90s, [artist id="860639"]50 Cent[/artist] has never shied away from causing a stir with his music. He's gone after some of the biggest names in rap in his lyrics and thusly has been the target of some harsh words and actions.

In a new "Behind the Music" focused on the life and career of the controversial rapper, airing on October 13, fans will get an inside look at 50's world and hear from him and the people who know him best. Fif talks about what it was like to lose his mom at a young age, his arrests and surviving being shot nine times in 2000.

"You don't know if you're actually going to survive it or not," he says in the show. "I don't know what it feels like to die, but it doesn't look like it hurts as much as a hospital bed."

The shooting left his rap career in jeopardy and he explained that it wasn't the physical pain that he had the most problems with. "The most pain I went through was the confusion," he said. "Not knowing if I'll be able to rap for a living ... [but] everything else is smaller than the loss of my mother."

The special also features friends and mentors who have helped to shape 50's life and career, including Eminem, who was one of the only people not afraid of the rapper's dangerous image after the shooting. Em said he recalled hearing Fif's music and feeling like he couldn't even compete, thinking, "This 50 sh-- — I quit."

Fif also elaborates a bit on the several high-profile feuds and beefs he's had over the span of his career, explaining, "Beefs are a part of hip-hop culture." He also comments on his treatment in the press, saying, "They find so many things to say about me. For me, it doesn't matter — I get to be the guy in the picture."

As for his drive to make it in the industry, the former drug dealer from Queens says that it's like an addiction. "I'm an addict. I'm addicted to success. It's my absolute vice."

And despite all the success, he still can't forget the fact that his mom wasn't physically there to be with him while he obtained it. He said, "If I could ask my mom a question, I'd probably ask her, 'How do I look?' 'Cause I know she's been with me the whole time."