Looking back at what she described as a "hell of a year," [artist id="501686"]Britney Spears[/artist] told Glamour magazine that winning three Moonmen at the Video Music Awards reminded her that the industry and her fans are still rooting for her. She added that the victories restored her confidence.
"I have been working so hard on my album, but ... I didn't know exactly where I stood with everyone," she said. "When I received the awards and [the audience] stood for me, it showed me how much love is out there."
("Britney: For the Record" featured a behind-the-scenes look at the pop star's big night at the VMAs.)
That confidence shone through when Spears talked about her new album Circus, which she described as "really personal," adding, "I think people will feel that when they hear it. It's me talking to them, instead of just singing a song about something."
One thing the singer isn't entirely confident about is her body image. But, like many things in her life, she's starting to regain that as well. "I'm getting there," she admitted. "Recently I started to appreciate my body a bit more from before I had kids. But it completely changed, and I have had to work hard at getting it back to where it used to be."
Spears hopes that by being a good role model to her two young sons, they will treat women with respect as they grow up. "Hopefully they will respect me by the way I carry myself, and in doing that, they will know how to respect other women. ... I think it's important to set up that boundary of respect for them at a young age, so they will know, I better listen to Mommy."
She added that she hopes they realize "that I love them unconditionally."
She also talked about finding out the news that her little sister, Jamie Lynn Spears, was pregnant, describing the news as "mind-boggling." But she also had some key advice for her sister: "As a mother, the one thing that always goes through your head is, you're never enough. You never can be enough — or do enough — for your kids. It's a never-ending issue for me."
Despite her old image as a party girl, she insists that these days she's "boring." "I don't like going out. I hate clubs," she told the magazine. "I hate being around too many people. I love my home and staying in bed and watching "Dancing With the Stars" or reading a Danielle Steel novel. I'm kind of boring."
At the end of the day, the pop star thinks that out of all the people around her, her mom, Lynne Spears, is the only one who really understands her. "We butt heads the most, but we understand each other the most too," she said. "It's a weird thing."
With the New Year quickly approaching, Spears has a few goals for 2009. "I would like to stop worrying so much, because I worry all the time," she said. "And to learn how to be happier, just in general. I have to learn to take things not so seriously. And to stop biting my nails!"
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