Steve-O Learns In The Psych Ward That There's More To Him Than 'Random Acts Of Silliness'

'I had never seen the tolls that my years have taken on my flesh so vividly,' 'Jackass' star says of his beaten-up body.

Steve-O seems to be taking to the psych ward a lot better than Britney Spears ever did — after 10 days inside, the "Jackass" star has found a new lease on life and come to accept himself, "imperfections and all."

Steve-O (real name: Stephen Glover) was forcibly taken by Johnny Knoxville and several other friends to Los Angeles' Cedars-Sinai Medical Center on March 9 and placed on a "5150" hold for suicidal behavior, after inviting friends to document him executing a stunt during which he would take a 25-foot fall onto concrete. (They were alarmed, in part, by his statement in the e-mailed invitation that read, "I'm ready to f---ing die.")

His 72-hour hold at Cedars-Sinai was extended to a 14-day stay, and during the course of his treatment, Glover joins his fellow patients in the activity room for what they call "grooming group" every morning, at which point they can be shaved. (Patients are not usually allowed razors or other sharp objects when they're considered a danger to themselves or others.) Grooming group has a few perks, as Glover has found, including mint-julep masks and a chance to chat, and those conversations have given the stuntman some insight on what being truly suicidal is.

"[Name withheld] is a great guy," Glover wrote in an e-mail on Wednesday (March 19). "He is a lawyer who came to the ward because he attempted suicide by slashing his arms and wrists so severely that they are currently held together with sutures and staples. I can't possibly imagine how such a sensible man could find life to be not worth living."

And in a separate e-mail sent on Sunday, Glover indicated that he wanted to do something deeper with his life "than to make people giggle at my random acts of silliness." "There is more to me than the act of scrotum-stapling," he insisted, pointing out that he got an A in philosophy when he was a student at the University of Miami.

Besides closely examining his soul during talk therapy, the 33-year-old Glover has also closely examined his body, realizing for the first time the severe damage his body has endured. "I had never seen the tolls that my years have taken on my flesh so vividly," he wrote. "Pretty wild to wait until you're hidden away in the 'nut house' to become self-conscious about the way you look." He's not necessarily talking about all the scars and tats he's given himself, but gray hairs and wrinkles from premature aging. The way he phrased his newfound awareness revealed something else: that he plans to live to a ripe old age.

"I am, indeed, very proud to be exactly how I am, imperfections and all," he wrote. "As a matter of fact, I look forward to the deterioration of my appearance over future years, with hopes of giggling, in old age, at the thought of how truly ugly I will have become."