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 Instant stardom, "the least favorite Osbourne," and the drugs of Los Angeles...

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 Mom's cancer, holding his own with grown-up druggies, and OxyContin...

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 Hitting bottom, attempting suicide, and asking for help...

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 Detoxing ugly, then into rehab...

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 Being Ozzy's son, and reconnecting with Mom and his sisters...

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Yago: When did you bottom out? When were you at your absolute lowest on this drug?

Osbourne: For a while I was suicidal and I tried to kill myself.

Yago: Really?

Osbourne: Yeah.

Osbourne: I tried... I took a bottle of pills. I'd been in Europe and I had a lot of absinthe and I was just drinking and drinking, trying to, you know, just shut my body down.

Yago: Why did you want to die?

Osbourne: There's a lot of things that were going on. I'd run out of OxyContin, I was doing a lot of Dilaudid. Dilaudid is like a millimeter down from OxyContin. I was doing a lot of those, and life just got super stressful for me, and I just sat in a hotel room, [thinking,] "I want it to end, I want it to end." And I'd actually gone up to my mum one morning, just sitting on her bed, and I started crying. Mum was like, "What's wrong? What's wrong?" I said, "I need help. Something's wrong. I need help." And she was really sick at the time, and she was like, "What can I do? What can I do?" And I said, "I don't know, I need a lot of help," and she goes, "Is it the drinking? Is it the using?" I said, "Yeah." She said, "OK, I'll get you help," and then I went in my room and I got high and I convinced her I was OK and that I was just tired, and she was like, "No, you just told ..." And I just said, "No," and I kind of went on with it saying I was fine.

Yago: Did your parents recognize that this was going on for you?

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Osbourne: She was in a mess 'cause Mum had her cancer, so she had to really focus on herself, you know — she was surviving. And dad was just an emotional wreck. He was drinking a lot of the time, he was smoking a lot of pot. And because he takes certain medications, the drinking was making him ... you know, he wasn't even present, really.

Yago: What about your sisters?

Osbourne: Aimee, I think Aimee kinda had an idea. I think she kinda knew what was going on. Kelly was so busy with her career she wasn't really around.

Yago: And there were cameras on you all the time?

Osbourne: Yeah.

Yago: Was there anybody you felt you could talk to?

Osbourne: It wasn't like that. I just wasn't recognizing it, so there's nothing to talk about because everything was fine. ... You know, it's funny because I can remember thinking ... I would always go, "I'm gonna go dry for four weeks. I'll be fine. I'm just gonna stop. I'll do it tomorrow. I'll stop tomorrow." And then the next day, "I'll stop tomorrow." And that was the way it was from January on.

Yago: When did you realize that you had gotten into something you couldn't control?

Osbourne: When my parents approached me to go to rehab.

Yago: So your parents approached you.

Osbourne: They came up to me and they were like ... mom threw a bag down and was like, "You're going to rehab," and I was like, "No. How dare you say that to me? I'm fine." A friend had called my mom and said, "Jack's hooked on OxyContin. He's in a pretty bad way." At this point she had been cancer-free [and] she was starting to regain her strength, her awareness of what was going on around the house. She was trying to mend things. Dad she smacked down to shape, and my dad started getting back on track when my mom said, "You're going to rehab or you're dead." So I ran away. I just took off running. I went to a friend's house and I went pretty buck wild. I was snorting Demerol, OxyContin. I'd gotten a hotel room and just ... I don't really remember much.

Yago: Did you ever get close to overdosing?

Osbourne: I think I should have died about four times.

Yago: What happened each of those four times?

Osbourne: The first time I was just really drunk and I vomited in my sleep while I was on my back and I didn't wake up.

Yago: Who woke you up?

Osbourne: God. The next morning

Yago: What about the other three times?

Osbourne: The other three times I'd taken about five extra-strength Vicodin, I drank about eight beers, had about five shots of tequila and like three Ambien and I went swimming.

Yago: Who pulled you out of the pool?

Osbourne: (shaking his head) God. ... When I was in treatment they said, "There's no reason why you should be sitting here, because everything you say you've done and have done has killed people, has pretty much killed most people that would do it."

Yago: When did you realize for yourself that you needed to get help?

Osbourne: I went to a friend's house and we just started using. I took myself out of the picture for a second and I looked around at every single person in the room — at who they were, how old they were and what they had going on in their lives. A lot of them were near to 30, unemployed, living off their parents. Everyone was, you know ... they were heroin addicts. They were just guys on The World's Biggest Couch Tour and it was like, "I don't want to be like that." I don't want my life to be controlled by a drug. I want to be in control of my life. I was really loaded and I came home and just sat on my mom's bed, and I said, "I'm going to go pack my bags. I'm ready to go. And you know, I want to go — I need to go."

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